I feel so bad

Here it is March 26... and I just had dinner with my step-daughter under the influence of at least four shots of vodka and a few glasses of red wine. I would say that I'm drunk, but I'm probably just tipsy. I wish I could just be happy.

It's that week

So here it is... my birthday week. I don't know why I get so depressed each year around this time. I guess I should think less about the things that I'm not doing and take account of what I have.

I stayed home from work today, with vacation hours. I haven't been sleeping well lately (it's been about a week with no good sleeps), and I just didn't feel like lying that I was sick. I mean, I'm not 'sick' sick... but I didn't feel like I was up to using the whole brain today. And lately, going to work means balls to the wall running from beginning to end. I'm tired of this oil-fuelled growth here, and of the election year.

But, where I would have played hooky a few years ago... today I just called and said 'look, I'm just not up to it today'. I'm sure my boss will understand. Plus, all the night meetings I've been going to will provide me with lots of overtime to use.

So here I am... 36 for two more days. I decided to make a meatloaf today for the family (the stepkids are coming over for dinner tonight). I've never made a meatloaf before. I figured I should do it before I hit my late-30s. Weird, I know.

I cleaned out the garage this weekend, and came across a bunch of my brother's stuff. I miss him a lot, but I didn't get all weepy and stuff over it. Funny, though... because today it's hitting me harder.

I'm glad summer is finally coming around. Man, I was getting sick of winter. It's hard to wake up to snow for 6 months in a row. I know global warming is occuring... but it's hard to believe it here.

I bought three bottles of wine this weekend. But I only drank one bottle... that's not bad.

Crazy 2007

It's been a crazy 2007 so far. I'm sure any Canadian knows the insanity going on here in Alberta. It truly is too much to keep up with some days. Especially if you are working for a city in the development biz.

I've been totally incensed lately by the Alberta government, when I see places like Fort McMurray struggling to keep up with service demand and housing. Oil companies and mining companies in Africa build hospitals, schools, housing, etc., and we can't even get basic infrastructure here in Alberta. Hello, Alberta?... the third world is getting a better deal from the oil companies than you are!

I've been really busy so far this year, and I rarely get time to myself (especially time alone in front of a computer!) Now that my stepkids are 11 and 14, I pretty much have to arm wrestle them to use the computer... so blogging has been temporarily put on hold for the most part. Right now, I'm at my work computer waiting for a City Council meeting to start, so I actually have a few minutes to myself.

So I came back to this blog tonight, and lo and behold it was filled with spam. Ugh, that makes me mad. So I apologize to anyone that wants to comment in the blog, because I had to turn on word verification. It was sad to see my blog all slimed up that way.

So a big apology to all of the people I used to visit (and who used to visit me)... I didn't mean to drop off the face of the earth! I promise I'll try to poke my head in here from time to time.